Control

I might have a really hard time with the fact that e-boards blog isn't my blog. Carrie just wrote the first non-Katy entry, and she only capitalized one word in the title- the second word, and it was all in CAPS.

*Deep breath*

Perhaps this will be a good exercise in not having to control everything.

(You can check out e-board's blog at binghamtonivcf.blogspot.com.)

All about the sabbath (mostly cause I'll copy paste this to use for my healthy habits journal)

So I am interrupting my quite time to write this, because something occurred to me this Sabbath. I think I am trying to be a weekend rest warrior, and trying to get all my rest into one day. And this means that I am not focusing on resting in God, but more on catching up on sleep and play that I don’t get to enjoy during most of the week. I’d like for my Sabbath to be lots of quite time (in the literal and Christianese sense), reading, time in nature, and fellowship. But yesterday, I was so physically tired by Sabbath, that all I did was lie on the floor of Steve and Tom’s place and watch tv and movies.

I think if I want to rest, and not just veg, I am going to have to be better at giving myself breaks through out the week. I'm getting better at setting aside chunks of time for home work, fellowship work, and Korean language development, so now I think I want to put aside some rest time during my days. If I actively rest as opposed to trying to doing hours upon hours of highly distracted work, I'll probably be able to get more done.

My stupid freaking healthy habit journal, Sabbath, and tooth pick crosses

So I'm supposed to take up a healthy habit and keep a daily journal of it for NURS 222. Yeah freaking right. Like I'm going to journal EVERY DAY about some thing. I think I really resent that the nursing program is taking the liberty to make me change how I live AND being so invasive as to make me write about it EVERY day. Screw that.

This entire entry is going into the journal, including what I just said. If they want to know about how I feel about adopting a healthy habit and then writing about it all the time, then they can know how irate I am that they are trying to get so much into my life. For a program that places such an emphases on professionalism and separating your private life from your work, you'd think that they'd let us be good nursing students in class and clinical but who ever we want to be outside.

So my healthy habit is going to be keeping the rest work cycle as laid out in Genesis 1, aka Sabbath keeping. But a part of resting one day is working the other six, so I think that that is what I'll be journaling about for the most part.

Sabbath Update: Last Sunday, my room was spick and span by the time Saturday 7 rolled around, and I didn't do homework or fellowship work till Sunday 6:30ish. Next week I want to do the same things, but add both a quite time (at least 1/2 hour) on Saturday night and on Sunday (again, at least 1/2 hour) before sabbath ends, and I want to subtract spending money. So no shopping on Sabbath. I've decided that that doesn't apply to dinning halls, but no Walmart or online stuff on Sabbath. A part of not working I think should also be not acquiring.

Work Update: So as today isn't sabbath, I should have don't lots of work. But I didn't. I got up later then usual cause I was tired. And after eight and a half hours of classes, I just went over to Sunroot's for dinner and we talked till 11. (God, I love talking with that kid...) Now I'm just trying to get some fellowship stuff done before bed.

I'm okay with not getting lots of work done on Tuesdays. If I can get through all my classes, that seems like work enough. I just wish I didn't have to organize this freaking tabling thing for IV. I love God, but not some of ways I find my self serving Him. I guess its just a toothpick cross I'll have to put in my pocket and let poke me sometimes. (aka 'bearing my cross' on a much, much smaller scale.)

Cognitive activation theory of stress

The theory that instability and stress occur whenever there is a discrepancy between what the person perceives the situation should be and what it is.

(aka- my life)

Sabbath

So today was my second Sabbath of the semester, and I am still doing the very basic- no homework. Next week, I am going to add that it starts Saturday at 7, ends Sunday at 7, and that my room should be clean by the time it starts on Saturday. I am also going to start working on a Sabbath prayer, (something like a kiddush) so I can talk to God about and remind me of all the reasons I celebrate Sabbath in the first place.

Eww

Right now I am at my desk in my room reading my 1800 page nursing text book with only the desk light on because Joanna is trying to pretend thats it isn't 1 o'clock in the afternoon, and is still sleeping. I've decided not to let that bother me. I can do basically anything I want to while she is sleeping, just as long as I do it kind of quietly.

Nursing is an interesting profession but think I am pretty intimidated by the responsibility of it all. I also just realized this morning that I am probably going to be seeing a lot more adult male genitalia before my wedding night, seeing as one of the things coming up in the syllabus is inserting catheters, giving bed baths, and other naked intensive procedures. I'm going to say it here cause I'll get in trouble if I say it in a hospital setting, but eww. Gross, gross, groddy, gross, eww.

I'm glad I got that out of my system.

My week days are a little busy, but Ill try updating on weekends.

Comfort and Chinese

So I am back in the comfort of my home in Troy. And maybe we (my family and I) are too comfortable with each other. I say that because I just got back from the kitchen where one of my brothers was wearing just his tighty whities and a tee-shirt. Maybe its because the only two times I have seen adult male genitalia have been relatively traumatic (once was my brother in a freak pantsing accident, the other was a guy publicly pleasuring himself on the train from Seoul to Anyang) but I would rather my little brothers not be so casual parading their junk around the house.

In my last blog I said I was going to start learning Chinese characters, and right now I probably know a little over 100 (their English meaning, and Korean pronunciation.) Its pretty exhilarating. Sometimes I feel like Lyra reading the Alithiometer in the His Dark Materials series. While some combinations are ingenious; the word "eye under" means now, at present. The character which doubles the character for fire one over the other, "yawm" means flame, bright, brilliant, inflamation, or ...itis. Others however are a little harder to understand, and then I feel like Lyra going through the levels of different meaning in each component of the character to put together a comprehensive meaning. For example, the character for tree combined with the characters for eye and heart is "sang" which means, to think or expect. Combine rain with tree and eye and you get frost (also pronounced sang). I know sometimes characters will have one component to denote pronunciation with another to suggest meaning but neither rain, heart, tree, or eye make are pronounced "sang" which would mean they are all there for meaning, in which case I a little lost. Maybe tree eye makes sang, and I've just forgotten. Any way, I love it. I wonder how hard it would be to learn to speak Chinese if I could already read it? I'm glad my roommate this year is freaking awesome in Chinese (three dialects no less) cause I think I need some help with my calligraphy.