KtgK 11: An adventure.

Yesterday I went on an adventure and found YWAM Seoul. I got there and it was in this apartment like building, so I start going up the stairs and catch a guy on his way to the bathroom. Thats when I realized I had no clue how to express what I was there for in Korean. Oops.

So I made him wait while I found my cell phone and used the Korean English dictionary in it to figure out the word office, and pointed to my self saying "나도 YWAMer 이에요." (I'm a YWAMer too.) I also asked "영어 말한 사람 있어요?" (Is there an English speaking person here?) Real smooth, right?

So I got to speak with one of the YWAMers there in Konglish for about an hour about the base, YWAMs ministries in Seoul and the rest of Korea, and of coarse, who I was and why the heck I was there.

So YWAM in Seoul does a lot of the usual YWAM type things (DTS, Performing Arts, Kings Kids, etc...), but it also acts like InterVarsity in that there is a YWAM staff at almost every university in Seoul doing Carrie-like things. There is even one at Yonsei, but I don't know if I will contact him seeing as I'm only here for another week and a half.

So there are a lot of really cool things about 'YWAM InterVarsity' especially when there are a lot of chapters all in one city. One of them is "Campus Worship" which I went to after I left the base. Its basically like a the large group times in a IV retreat, except there are more people (around 500 when I went, but over 1,000 when school is in its regular session) AND they do it every Thursday. I went and it was VERY very cool. It makes me want to go to real college here.

And thats another thought on my mind. Lets say by the time I graduate college I am functionally fluent in Korean. I could totally do grad work or YWAM schools here. I don't know if thats whats in God's plan for me (but I would love it if it is.)

And that brings me back to this nagging fear that A. I am currently not doing God's will and B. That I will be too afraid to really seek what the heck Gods will is for the future.

I know thats a slippery slope into neon sign desperation, but I know I need to stop and really pray about the next two years and the couple of years after that so I can stop playing a "whats God's will" guessing game. But I am too scared to do it.

Thats a dumb fear cause God is God and Hes not failed me once. I wish that fact would connect more with how I live my life.

On a different note, I think I am going to cut back of my media intake. I think I found myself thinking today that if I don't get a boyfriend soon my heart might just break and stop beating and I will die and be dead like a dead dead thing that is not alive and has no life. I find this type of utter desperation to be unbecoming of a girl/women my age (too old to be so dramatic, too young to be so desperate) so I think I might need to deal with my main reminder of my singledom and retake up my Lenten discipline of no romantic comedy/drama. Being okay with where God has put me know will probably help me figure out where He wants me to go.

You have probably heard me say all of this before (because I know I have said all of this before.) Apparently this is a lesson I am choosing to learn the long way...