Freaking A

Today I wrote all of the instructions for S'more Night Team Leaders. But I didn't pray. I need to quit doing that.

Today Dad and I talked about marriage while cleaning the kitchen. Obviously its on my mind, but apparently its on my dad's mind too, and I don't know how I feel about that. Half of me was so happy to see him happy talking about starting dating and looking again for love. I know my dad is lonely. The other half of me though is like "Freeking A!" I don't think '3rd times the charm' is supposed to apply to marriage! If he wants to be married again, maybe he should work things out with the wife hes got now! For real! I struggle wondering if there is hope for them. I don't want to doubt Christs ability to reconcile, but on the other hand, (if there is an other hand) I feel like if my parents were going to let Christ bring reconciliation, they would have done so a long time ago. (I think its been 11 years sense they first got separated.)

I need to pray but for some reason am avoiding G-d like the plague. I don't feel especially sinny, but why else would I be hiding? Ok. Enough blogging. I'm going to go talk to G-d.