Urgent

Yesterday I wrote instructions for movie night coordinators. Today I made the poster for walking tours and went through my e-board e-mails to make sure I had responded to every thing. Poor e-board got like 10 e-mails from me in the past two days. Poor Katy has gotten no responses.

Its hard to retain a sense of urgency in regards to our call to reconciliation and restoration when I spend most of my day at home, by my self. Don't get me wrong, I like being home, and I appreciate solidarity, but I know I'm/ we are called to more. But I feel like I'd be creating unnecessary emotional conflict if I get my self all passionate about issues I'm not in position to do anything about.

For example, I could start crying about China or Burma, but I don't have any money, so it would be a waste to become invested in something I can't do anything about.

The obvious answer is prayer. I'm no good at praying. Maybe this is a chance to get better at it. I will probably need some help though.

This is probably also the reason I don't mind spending a lot of time on NSO. Its something that if done right, advances the kingdom. So I feel like at least for a couple hours a day, I can do something that matters.

Why I feel like if I don't have money to give to help China and Burma means I'm useless to them, and that most other things besides planning NSO seem like a waste of time probably means my priorities and paradigm a little off. I'm arguing in my head about this, because I know both sides. I still think I'm a little right. But I probably need to reevaluate, because I don't think G-d intends for us to take a brake from caring, and if He calls us out of apathy, its probably for good reason (even if I'm on summer break.) Maybe that will be in a blog to come.